Without you

Right now I’m sitting here alone wondering where you are. Wondering what you’re doing. Wondering what.. who you’re thinking of. I can’t help but to wonder if you’re thinking of me like I’m thinking of you.

It’s been so long, so many lonely years. I’ve spent those years searching for you, and it wasn’t until now that I found you. That you found me. I’ve missed you. All these years we’ve been apart I’ve missed you so much. Of course we’re still miles away, only able to communicate via the virtual world and by cell phones that never have an adequate signal. Of course right now you’re the only person I can think about. Of course I keep hoping that something will happen between you and me. LOL But that’s just wishful thinking. I know you’re happy.
Or at least I think you’re happy. I hope you’re happy.
I want you to be happy :)

Right now my mind is all foggy, because I can’t stop thinking about you. Can’t stop thinking about how much I want you, how much I need you, how much I want to be with you. Sure, we can talk, but only with typed words that don’t… can’t express what I feel for you. How much I feel it.
Sure, we can call each other and talk, and sure spoken word, even from a distance, has the ability to show how I feel for you, how much I feel it, a little better than typed words. But it just isn’t enough. Right now I want to be able to look you in the eye and hold you in my arms when I tell how I feel about you, how strong my feelings for you are.
But the miles between us prevent my dreams from coming true. That’s the other thing, the way you been intruding on my dreams, filling my mind with desire, making me want you, making me need you even more. Everything I do makes me think of you. Right now I can only think of you.
Right now,
without you here I can’t think.